OceanLife

When you love something as great as the ocean
expect to have a few near death experiences
expect to find yourself entranced with how the sun reflects upon her beauty
but expect to find yourself almost drowning when the storms come.
its a complex situation.
I have fell in love with Oceanlife
and sometimes my jealousy
gets the best of me.
I fear past lovers that have died in her arms
are at the bottom of the ocean floor
still preoccupying a space in her mind and heart
But this entire ocean belongs to me..
i am entranced with the ups and downs
i need to be with her..
i need to be a part of her.

to be contd.

mister lonely

Loneliness
the only true friend of mankind
He is so faithful and true..
always lurking in some corner,
patiently waiting to position himself into ones heart and mind.
He has found me today..before the sun even rose he was laying in my bed..
he visited me in my dreams..and woke me from a short sleep.
He reminded me he is always here with me
and so i wept...
i wept because i want to end this relationship with him
i want to stop looking into the eyes of my lover for an antidote against him
i want to be loved not lonely.
where is love?
she hides from us all...
always just within our grasp...then she slips away..
she seems to always hide in the future or the past..
i want to kill this loneliness..and pain..
but its living inside me...and i fear suicide is not an option..

love please rescue me

back back

im exposed in my covers, and my layers
the sickness in my mind is seeping thru my pores
making me appear more and more unstable
at least when i look in the mirror,
thats what i see,
instability.
i lay in my bed feelin the cracks of my heart
it seems sometimes, the cracks and rips arent there
then someone pulls a trigger,
and im blasted back to a full size picture of myself,
and there they are,
beneath the covers and layers
all the cracks this life has given me.
i am worthless.
i am no longer of any value..and i dont know how to refurbish myself.